For years I yo-yo'd up and down with smoking as "no smoking" laws were passed in the U.S. and designated smoking areas were created for us losers. I remember one day while standing out in front of an office building in Chicago on an 11 degree day in a blizzard, smoking a cigarette with gloves on, wearing a parka, thinking to myself, "WTF am I doing out here? This is insane!" That was in 2004, and the price of cigarettes in Chicago was approaching about $5.50 a pack. Hard-core addicts were driving to Indiana where there were no "sin taxes" to pick up cartons of smokes for 2/3 the price - and to gas up for about the same! My filthy addiction began to hit me in the wallet.
What's even more perverse is the fact that, nearly all of my smoking life the worst physical shape I've ever been in has been "good shape". I've always enjoyed intense exercise. I like to feel the pain and see the gain. I love to sweat! I like to look good! I like to feel good! Yet smoking flew in the face of it all. It never made any sense and I was acutely aware of the twisted, double life I was living.
In 2005 I moved to Costa Rica. Ticos smoke like chimneys (sound familiar?). And the price of package of cigarettes was about $1.50 (it's only $2.00 now). I was still single and hung out at bars and night spots which served only to perpetuate my self-imposed slavery.
I started a business (a couple actually), fell in love with my wonderful wife. We renovated a house and moved in and made it a home. Then, we had a baby girl. She's not a baby anymore. She's a little person. And I have become hyper-conscious of every nail I put in my own coffin.
15 days ago I smoked my last cigarette. Yeah, I can hear the laughs and chuckles out there - 15 days ain't nothin'! But this time I know it will stick. Because every time I get the urge to smoke a cigarette, I look at Laila's gorgeous face and ask myself, "What would my little princess do without here Papi?". Amazing how fast the urge to smoke disappears.
¡Pura vida! And I mean it!!
P.S.: There are two Mike's out there who have been really inspirational to me in my effort to kick the habit. Thanks, guys!